Wednesday 8 August 2012

Living student life.

I am a student, still learning... more often just trying to make it through... There's not much ambitiousness inside me....When others dream of the moon, the stars appear diamonds to me<---ok ape tah sye merepek nih?

today, i officially congratulate myself and my friends for making through this the 3rd year. Most of us made it through though some don't. After going through a lot of near-fail situations; I must say, it must be tough for them, and there's no words that i can say to ease that burden, but i wish you stay strong and keep on trying... 

This clinical years is especially tough...i lack communication skills.... id withdrew from speeches...im antisocial....im the kind of person who if she graduate from this medical school is likely to become a pathologist, or a whateve that dont concern communication with people...Terokkan?

I don't know...

This clinical years gave me quite a lot of anxiousness...

In the beginning of each posting, there is a feeling of determination..to make it through and to pass (sometimes the aim is to come out of the exam smiling, considering i actually cried after the second posting exams). then come the duties..to society, to parents, to family and to friends.. Those got me busy, but still i was just looking for a pass.. then comes the revision period.. revision period in clinical years are always exhausting.. I wish it would just past by...or id rather we dont even have revision period.. it is the time when i dont want to study but i dont want to do anything else other than studying...and just before the exams i am already greeting the holidays, so exams are just something routine. Well especially if you have one day between the theories and the clinicals'...

the most frustating of all is always the waiting... the waiting for the results...owh i swear how each moment is filled with anxiety...each and every moment is a curse to all the relaxing moments i had through the posting..a feeling of anger, depression, bargaining and what not. And you know, at this point of time, because of my yoyo awesomeness, malasness, and whateverness prior to exam had let me to belief that i too a roller coaster ride with no seat belts, still riding... only until it stops i know im safe

and all this is only relieved by the results... 


the moment that comes next is only thankfulness..alhamdulillah, i pass, Alhamdulillah, i actually had been here...praising LORD for His Graciousness, Praising LORD for His kindness.. That He put us here, and what ever the tantrums we try to pullover, He still make us through...and never regretting each moment of trust...

yeah so that is clinical years for me..