Wednesday 23 November 2011

Something new..

A new experience indeed! clinical years, ahh, its just unexpectedly too fun...

Lord, if i could repeat this posting not because i fail the exams, i would..anyways, 5th year kan ade lagi?

hee....left in the paediatric posting, i had so much fun...HOSHAS was definitely da'BOMB!!!

ha, nilah perasaannye after exam...boleh tak? padahal tadi baru kene maki, caci dek doctor..taktaula ape masalah ngan euphoria nih!mungkin sebab da abes exam kot...

if others are worrying, im just 'too' prepared to fail, to repeat, but i dunno why im like this...deep inside: Yep im lying, sape tah nak fail exam kalau boleh lepas smoothly je, esp if others can, y cant we?....perhaps i need to take a break reflect myself and understand y im here...coz sometimes im just so lost...taktau ape motif nk jadi dr.? tak tau nape ade kat uia?. taktau nape gi hospital? have you ever felt that aimless....

even saying tak kesah kalau fail ke mende ke nih...im worried one thing only...satu je!!! ti ape nk kate kat parents? ape nk kate kat Allah? ape nk kate?? kawan2??? perhaps the least of my worries, they would say you shud try harder!tak pon theyd say jangan risau, this is the first exam...i noe...friends are just too nice...but what do i say to my parents? "ma, ba, Ms Tiyyrus fail exam tadi".....fuhhh, tak rase nak bayangkan pon cemane diorg react...


i think i did really badly exam tadi.. bole x x prasan down syndrome? padahal hri tuh gelakkan MO marah HO tak recognize down syndrome....kan, padan muka, kene balik muke sendiri! dalam exam plak tuh



anyhow, i think everybody enjoyed their first posting....tak kesahlah paeds ke, IM ke, OnG ke, Surg ke....ade yang nanges, ade yg ketawa... i dun think u can survive life without those two....it has to come together!! anyway time kite baby pon, kite belajar nanges dlu, baru belaja senyum...kan? but da besar nih lupe plak nk nanges, tak cool la kalau nanges, tak sylo kan? apelah kite nih, padahal org yg tak menanges tuh lagi merisaukan dari org yang menanges... bukan org beriman tuh lagi byk nanges ke dari ketawa? hmm, kadang kite lupe, minta Allah bagi petunjuk...ameen