The Donation-A2G3

It was last weekend the 14th and 15th of april when we give our ALL in search for donation for the Aqsa2 Gaza3 mission about to take place in May. It seems to be a tough job in the beginning. Questions that came in our heart were: how do we get donations? sitting at one corner and boom, the donation box gets full....NO, we dont have any genie in the bottle.

We were representatives for Aqsa Syarif, a non governmental body that are determined to help Palestinians. The mission was to alarm the Kuantan community on the issue of  Palestine and why we are eager to help those people. Minor survey was done and found that Palestine is often described as 'Kawasan Perang, or Tempat Orang Berbunuhan'...and no, they are not wrong... they were right. However, it would be nicer to describe it as the Muslim Land. As it is the place where the first Kiblah was, the house of Adam, an not to mention that majority of Prophets came from there. and Rasulullah, at his darkest moments when his wife and uncle passed away, and the da'wah in Taif was a failure, was brought by Allah to Masjidil Aqsa even before he was ascended to heaven. And had not Allah mentioned how blessed that land is in Al-Isra?

The other misconception that we faced were the coming of al-Mahdi. A lady came into our booth, scarfless but claimed to be a Muslim. and she tries to tell us that there is no need for boycotts and donations coz' one day al-Mahdi will come aroud and BOooOOm the world gets to be a better place once more... I'd like to suggest if  your minds has such a thinking, why not read the seerah of Rasulullah. For when he came, he was a saviour too. and in his course, many of the sahabahs had to fought. and no its not Ka-BoooOOm and Islam is here 14 century later.

However, a midst the ignorance, being humans and Muslims, not one shut their ears to the word donation. When approached. almost non refused to help... even with the help of few cents, we would ensure them that every deed is counted in Allah's eyes. 

The tactic was to approach the crowd, tell them the issue of Palestine, the crisis, and what is Aqsa syarif, what have they done, and the latest updates. We'd inform them too, where their donations would go too. Our target groups were kids, adolescents, adults, be them Muslims or not.

Must I mention, our team and the volunteering committees were very successful. we set out to I-FEST Megamall Kuantan to gather donation total up to RM3500, but yeah here I would like to brag and express how thankful and how pleased we are of the Kuantan community as their donations reached RM 5978. This amount was then added with a sum of donations that were contributed by the akhwats of IIUM Kuantan. And by the greatnes of Allah, it should um up to more than rm7000. ALHAMDULILLAH!

There is one Question that arose in my heart during collecting the donation. They were a few non Muslims, Chinese and Indians, who glad-fully helped to fill the donation box in large amounts. But, my heart is more inclined to call them to Islam and being in-experienced, i did nothing but pray that their hearts become enlightened with the brightness of Islam and one day, they become Muslims too...owh da'wah, y u no easy???

never knew.

There was a man, an illiterate, who lived His life full of honesty that people knew him as the al-Amin. He was a man an idol to me. Because of Him, there's peace in this world, there's peace inside me. He preaches the good, and forbids the evil. but he was an illiterate, an orphan too.. Yes, who knew that an illiterate man was destined to become a prophet?

Question is who knew what is to become of the future? whoever you are right now is not the obstacle to what is to become in the future.

During the war of Khandaq, the Kuffars were advancing in attempt to destroy Islam forever. They come from the front, from the back by a truce with the jews. promising them that victory is clear for them. But digging trenches was the only what Muslims can do. And those who were weak in their faith, their hearts shall tremble to the obviousness of the day of the doom.

Nonetheless, the prophet struck a stone and shouted "ALLAHUAKBAR". A glimpse of light came from the stone. Once, twice then thrice and the stone breaks apart. Each time with the cheers of "ALLAHUAKBAR" (ALLAH the GREATEST). The Prophet say I see from the lights that one day Islam shall enter the gates of Persia, then it will enter the gates of the Rome, and Islam shall conquer the whole universe.

So who knew that Islam would live through that day?

So what an idiot would think of when someone tells her that someday you would walk in to the university gates? That everybody has got their offer letter and she was still waiting for a reply, rejected or accepted doesnt really matter she said. Just a reply she sought for. And what a medical student who did so badly in an exam would know that she will or will not make it to be a doctor?

Who knows?

He Knows, and He has Plans..As a slave I shall live to believe in HIm, that all I could do is try my best and keep believing.

Now-inspired~  =)

Sacrifice

Something new..

A new experience indeed! clinical years, ahh, its just unexpectedly too fun...

Lord, if i could repeat this posting not because i fail the exams, i would..anyways, 5th year kan ade lagi?

hee....left in the paediatric posting, i had so much fun...HOSHAS was definitely da'BOMB!!!

ha, nilah perasaannye after exam...boleh tak? padahal tadi baru kene maki, caci dek doctor..taktaula ape masalah ngan euphoria nih!mungkin sebab da abes exam kot...

if others are worrying, im just 'too' prepared to fail, to repeat, but i dunno why im like this...deep inside: Yep im lying, sape tah nak fail exam kalau boleh lepas smoothly je, esp if others can, y cant we?....perhaps i need to take a break reflect myself and understand y im here...coz sometimes im just so lost...taktau ape motif nk jadi dr.? tak tau nape ade kat uia?. taktau nape gi hospital? have you ever felt that aimless....

even saying tak kesah kalau fail ke mende ke nih...im worried one thing only...satu je!!! ti ape nk kate kat parents? ape nk kate kat Allah? ape nk kate?? kawan2??? perhaps the least of my worries, they would say you shud try harder!tak pon theyd say jangan risau, this is the first exam...i noe...friends are just too nice...but what do i say to my parents? "ma, ba, Ms Tiyyrus fail exam tadi".....fuhhh, tak rase nak bayangkan pon cemane diorg react...

i think i did really badly exam tadi.. bole x x prasan down syndrome? padahal hri tuh gelakkan MO marah HO tak recognize down syndrome....kan, padan muka, kene balik muke sendiri! dalam exam plak tuh

anyhow, i think everybody enjoyed their first posting....tak kesahlah paeds ke, IM ke, OnG ke, Surg ke....ade yang nanges, ade yg ketawa... i dun think u can survive life without those two....it has to come together!! anyway time kite baby pon, kite belajar nanges dlu, baru belaja senyum...kan? but da besar nih lupe plak nk nanges, tak cool la kalau nanges, tak sylo kan? apelah kite nih, padahal org yg tak menanges tuh lagi merisaukan dari org yang menanges... bukan org beriman tuh lagi byk nanges ke dari ketawa? hmm, kadang kite lupe, minta Allah bagi petunjuk...ameen

HOPE

"Ya Allah, KeampunanMu lebih luas daripada dosa-dosaku....(Riwayat al-Baihaqi)

Itulah dia sepotong doa yang indah diajar oleh Rasulullah... Terlihat suatu sinar harapan bagi diriku yang penuh dosa ini... sebanyak mana dosa kite lakukan, keampunanNya tetap lebih luas. Setiap manusia mesti pernah ade pengalaman membuat dosa, hanyalah para nabi yang maksum...terkadang kite memandang rendah pade dosa-dosa kecil..seakan-akan ia akan terampun sendiri, hingga tiba suatu hari kite menjadi jinak dengan dosa itu dan sukar untuk kite meninggalkan dosa itu... kadang-kadang kite juga lakukan dosa besar, yang boleh jadi juga kite akan jinak dengannya....Nauuzubillah, InsyaAllah bukan kite (seriously, moga Allah pelihara kite dari menjadi golongan nih...huhuh)....tetapi bile terlanjur membuat dosa, kadang2 sukar nk balik ke pangkal jalan...seperti tajuk lagu backstreets boys "Sorry seems to be the hardest word".. 

meskipun begitu, terlalu byk harapan yang Allah dan RasulNya berikan pade kite...contohnya kisah si pelacur dan kisah si pembunuh...Atau di dalam Surah Az-Zumar Allah berfirman: "Katakanlah: Wahai hamba-hamba-Ku yang melampaui batas terhadap diri mereka sendiri! Janganlah kamu berputus asa dari rahmat Allah. Sesungguhnya Allah mengampuni dosa-dosa semuanya. Sungguh Dialah Maha Pengampun Maha penyayang." 

Persoalannya mengapa banyak dari kalangan kite yang tidak yakin pada kate2 Allah ini...kadang2 sye terbaca keratan akhbar seperti di metro. menceritakan jiwa2 yang berdosa...dan hakikatnya dosa itu melawan fitrah manusia..siape yg melakukan dose, pasti akan timbul rase kesal dalam dirinya...di akhir kate, mereka akan mengungkapkan suatu perasaan, rasa ingin keluar dari gelombang dosa itu...jika anda tak percaya, cubalah buka, mungkin anda akan jumpa kate2 mereka...mereka seakan2 mencari jalan pulang dan menunggu seseorg utk keluarkan mereka dari dosa itu, tetapi kehidupan mereka, org2 dikeliling mereka tiada utk menghulurkan bantuan rohani ini.

Renungkan...

Ask the fish that lives in the pond : do you know that there is a world outside your pond that is more wonderful?

the fish says: NO, my world is the best!

Ask the baby who lives in the womb : do you know that there is a greater world outside that womb of your mother?

the baby says; NO, my world is the best!

Ask the kafiruuns : do you know there is a greator world more everlasting than this world?

and they say : NO!

no greed? or too much greed?

im not strong, im weak..

would i be able to pretend to be strong?

even when the world is at its end?

i wonder~

well, 2 months after leaving studies, i just wander, would i be greedy for good grades? would i make good relation ship with patients? would i be able to maintain good relationship with Allah despite the limited time I have?Would i spent my money fr those who need when I meet them? would i be able to make those who claim themselves Muslims but live in their secular world to pray? or would i be able to all those who worship idols to worship the Most Gracious???

would I?Do I have enough greed to catch that thing called the "tijaratan lan tabuur".(the profit that never perish)...would i stay strong if i feel down? would I be constantly on the right path? the path that He bless?

I wonder~

my greed, is the Jannah, my greed is His blessing...this I am certain...

but to be able to stay 'strong'?..all the time on the right path?

Most importantly, would I be able to keep my intentions right and feel good about it?

for You, an You alone...this, i must try without fail...

I wonder~

I don't know my greed. if i am that greedy...

but I know my fears..

when I look at my hand, i know what my fears are...

i know my fears...

when i look at the sun, i know my fears

for that which i know, ill try to keep myself protected...away from my fears..

no matter what i'm greedy about, i know avoiding my fears would get me somewhere...

Somewhere safe...

Bless me, Ya Allah...